Well, Ken is off to Minnesota for his holiday tomorrow. Yikes! I am feeling a little more confident but still…
He had to take today off as well… the van was really working up and it would not have been safe to drive to the city. So he went to the bank and got some news… as long as we are looking at a mobile where we do not own the land his folks can NOT co-sign so all this fuss over the place we have been looking at may have been for not. They are going to see if they can get special permission to get them co-signed so we shall see, what we may have to do is wait 3 months and hope prices on "houses houses" go down. I can do this… we are one step closer to a "real home" and that makes me happy!
I did leave the egroup after all. I talked to the owner of the group and just felt that I needed to break off. I realize that may be seen by others in the group as me being overly emotional or some other negative outlook but you know what? I felt attacked, I felt upset and I do not need that right now in my life. Perhaps I have been too open, and maybe not thought things through, maybe my opinions changed due to the information they gave me and that led to me seeming conflicted… but I was true to myself when I wrote and I can be proud of that! Instead I spent much of today looking up egroups of other things I am interested in – my sewing and being a stay at home mom. I did find a couple of nice ones and have already met some nice people. I did go out of my way to find CANADIAN groups… feeling the need to talk to people who are more local and, especially in the case of SAHM’s… people who are knowledgeable of my healthcare and education systems. I feel good about my decision I really do.
Karyn came to visit and brought with her some of her stamping things. We played around and did some really fun things this afternoon. She was at an interview this morning and came here after. Hopefully something positive comes out of it! She so deserves a wonderful job that she is interested in and pays well! She will probably come back later tomorrow which is great since someone needs to drive our van back from the service place. It will be a bit of a walk with the kids but if we both push a stroller should be no problem. Ken already paid for the repairs and everything.
Tonight we had dinner out at the noodle house with Karyn, Sharon and Darryl and of course Emanuel. It was so yummy and Emanuel did rather well for how long we were there. A nice way to spend the evening before Ken leaves while the twins are at mom’s.
The coming 6 days are going to be a challenge. Tomorrow the boys and I will walk to 7-11 for milk and then Karyn will visit, Friday and Saturday all day I am pretty much on my own unless Karyn stays over… and then Sunday mom is coming to get us after 6pm. We will stay there AT LEAST until Tuesday. She has Sunday until the 6th off. The boys are going to have a blast and it will be Emanuel’s first time of staying at her house for a long period of time. I am debating leaving the internet at home and simply reading and playing my DS lite. I will have our cell phone so it will be easy to contact me in case of emergency OR interesting occurance I just HAVE TO know about.
So Emanuel is already asleep, Karyn on her way home and my kitchen covered in craft supplies… once the twins get home I have to finish packing Ken using the clean laundry, clean up and hopefully get some rest. I will feel MUCH better when I know that he has landed safe and sound in Minnesota! Are the boys ever going to miss him though! Especially Gavin wants to do EVERYTHING with Daddy so wish us luck!