Reality Is NOT Where I Want To Live

So life goes on and on and on. I guess you can’t expect the rest of the world to reflect your own personal issue or trauma but it FEELS like it should! On the other hand, as the days have gone by I feel more and more capable of looking to the positive… things like the health of my children, rent paid for the month, a visit to Minnesota imminent, Emanuel’s speech appointment booked for when we get back, Trinity up to a terrific 15th percentile weight… Ken and I have our love… my dad is graduating WITH HONOURS on the 12th… I think once I REALLY get going to list could go on and on and on… BUT it must be human nature – the one or two bad things definitely seem to overshadow all the positives.

Ken has a favourite thing to tell me when things go sour – "Kenny fix"… so simple and yet it is him taking the weight of OUR world and our family onto his shoulders… No matter how much my beloved Yankee may stress me out or frustrate me to NO END I don’t know what I would do without him… nor do I want to know what I would do. It is funny how in the past 10 yrs I have gone from being completely independent to really depending on someone else. It has been a difficult adjustment… having to sit and wait where I used to be able to get up and solve… but in return I am able to stay home with my kids, and for once in my life NOT be the one who has to carry the entire burden on my shoulders…

So we leave for Minnesota soon… and my mom’s wedding is on Saturday. I have had the kids make up all their Mother’s Day cards and have completed Trinity’s thank you cards… cross stitch patterns are packaged up with supplies and ready to go, Trinity’s spring and summer wardrobe is sitting waiting to be packed and the twins’ entired dresser emptied out for their suitcase… man do we need to get them more clothing! If anyone is thinking of gifts — JEANS!!! They have about worn out the knees on ALL of theirs! Now comes that hard part – picking out my own clothing, my wardrobe has shrunk drastically when I got rid of all the pieces that not longer fit or were worn out.. Then fit all of that in whatever containers are left and then the van… Insurmountable right now!

The boys are all out stomping in the rain! Our turkey we got on sale is in the oven and the rice in the steamer… life is never as bad in these moments as I would like to think it is at the worse points in the day! God bless the innocents of children and the love of a terrific man!

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