Archive | June 2006

Needles, Parties and Roses Red

Jun8

The wait if over – my dad will be here sometime today. I can hardly believe it is June already. We took Emanuel to Public Health and got his 3 month boosters… poor little man is asleep in the bassinet, so many tears thank goodness Ken was there to hold him. The twins were golden sitting at the little table in the room playing with the books. The nurse was very surprised when before we left they cleaned up their mess… I was so proud .

The weather is rather horrible today – blustery and rainy and cold. Hopefully by Sunday we will have some decent weather. It turns out that the boys’ uncle (my brother) will be there Sunday too! I just wish my sister and step mom could be here too. I am not exactly sure who all will make it but I am looking forward to presenting Emanuel formally to the church.

Ken brought me home two roses Tuesday! Beautiful red ones – one from him and one from the boys. A very unusual and romantic gesture on his part. A lovely reminder of how much my family loves me and that they really do appreciate what I do for them.

Well, the apartment is as clean and uncluttered as it can get with so many kids in the house, everything we needed to pre-order is done and the decorations are ready to be put up. Thankfully KEN is planning my birthday later this month so I can focus on the Baptism and then getting something nice for Ken for Father’s Day (you know BESIDES beer!!). Can’t time stand still for just ONE day ???

Love, the Ultimate Expression of Emotion

Jun6

Love is a funny thing, no matter how tired I get of the twins’ bickering, of Ken’s stubborn tendancies – when it comes down to it I love them. Love seems like such a small and minor word but the meaning behind it is so sacred, so important to our very being. Yes, I LOVE strawberries and summer days and kittens BUT I LOVE my husband, my children, my family, my Lord. How can one word have so mean meanings, it can bring you to tears, to laughter, bring comfort in hardship… yet heartbreak in strife. Without the idea of love we would not have hate, but without love we would also not have family, companionship, hugs, kisses… love making. Love is a divine gift from God – a treasure that we often misuse but more often cherish. Someday I will hear "I love you" from my own children’s mouths but until then I will tell them a hundred times a day I LOVE YOU! You may frustrate me and at times I may feel overwhelmed and angry but through the worst of the worst I LOVE THEM. I wonder if that is not my gift in life to an extent – one we share universally – the posibility and ability to love whole heartedly and to the very limits of our being. For what can be more wonderful than to love and be loved???

Home With The Boys – Oh For Some Estrogen in the House

Jun5

WARNING MINOR PITY PARTY LOL

I just feel down in the dumps, mopy, Blah, etc. today… Twin Group is cancelled due to many reasons – one mom has an inflamed ear canal and would have to bring ALL of her 6 kids, another works tonight and then there is the Oiler’s game that it seems most people are planning to stay home and watch… me… I am just BLAH. I played WoW while Emanuel napped (the little angel is on his floor toy right now playing – he already squiggling around and pulling at toys), I tidied a little, checked my email… wow does that sound BORING! And, truth… it is.

I guess it comes down to a lack of opportunity, just ONCE I would LOVE to have someone invite me out instead of my usual planning and inviting. I know it is difficult since A. I do NOT drive, B. I have a wee baby who goes where I go, C. I have 2 other children who need to be watched and who, out on an outing, take the majority of my attention, D. Naptime is basically the WHOLE afternoon and finally E. well no one has asked lately (ok F. not many people live within invite distance). After years of planning events/get togethers/visits/etc I would just LOVE someone to plan an event FOR me/invite ME out/etc… course I am tired from breastfeeding at night and such so I may just be overly emotional and tired… ok so I AM overly emotional and tired, but I may be right too – who knows??

I don’t remember mentioning this but Emanuel is now 14lbs 12.5oz and almost 24" long… he is getting so big so fast, but now that he is moving around more we should see a slower weight gain.

My dad will be here on Thursday for the first time in TWO YEARS!!! YAY. Emanuel’s baptism is this Sunday… we are keeping it rather small but if I have not mentioned it to you, you are welcome to come. I have just been really caught up in, well, LIFE. I am hoping Ken can get off early on Friday and have Monday off, my dad leaves for Edmonton Monday night to fly out Tuesday morning. So short a visit but still… we are planning on leaving the twins with my mom and going with dad to eat. I miss him so much…

So, after whining about something that in the grand scheme of things is minor and probably just my need for sleep and adult conversation coming out in a negative way – the weather is pleasant, the kids healthy and Ken and I still very much in love. Add to that Ken’s job, a roof over our heads and food in the ‘fridge and we are rather blessed. Of course what are BLOGS for but whining and bemoaning your fate? LOL I promise this will not become the norm, I do have a rather lovely life/family/friends/etc! and I promise I realize that – most days HEHE