"A Stitch in Time"

I wonder if the logical progression when in a situation where hope is becoming frayed is fear because I am starting to reach that point myself. After yet ANOTHER weekend without a van we call today to the contact we have been talking to for over a week and… he has not responded to messages or called us back. In the meantime I have gotten the call from my OBGYN with my first appointment with them (March 29th), confirmed my doctor’s appointment an hour away on the 12th, made our tax appointment for during the day on the 16th AND the 3 boys’ yearly appointments for late June… now the next major hurdle – will we even be able to get to these appointments??

Frustration has definitely given way to anger at this point, 2 1/2 weeks later and Ken is very much NOT willing to sit on hold for hours, we are beyond the point of understanding THEIR point of view when it is so obvious that BANK doesn’t care to see ours. We are out of options, we are almost out of the basics on food that are not easily carried home by Ken… we are not scheduling any homeschooling activities for lack of transportation… we are tired of being home… we are tired of being taken advantage of by a company that can’t seem to see beyond the fact that THEY made a mistake to recognize that THEIR mistake is causing major problems in the lives of 6 people.

No, I am afraid I will have to cancel appointments, that if we do have to get a rental we will have to take money from other things to pay for it. I am afraid  that in order to get mobile again we will have to look into the purchase of a different vehicle, that this repossession with ruin our credit rating… that I am letting my kids down… that Ken is going to end up sick again due to all this added stress…

So yeah…. not my best Monday…

It is amazing how quickly a weekend can go when a good friend is there to enjoy it with you! Karyn made the trip over to spend the weekend scrapbooking and shopping and taking Trinity out for a trip. We went all the way to the south end for Ikea and meatballs! Trinity was VERY impressed by Aunty Karyn’s car with the windows  she could reach though she was quite vocal on the lack of a tv.

Eating at Ikea is messy business!

Then to the mall to buy the perfect hat for Trinity – AKA the only one we put on and she REFUSED to give back! And of course stopping by Sephora, though I did not buy anything. OH and a stop over at Old Navy to spend ANOTHER 10.00 on clothing for Miss Trinity – on SALE… Aunty Karyn could not resist with a couple on sale pieces for Trinity as well. I was amazed at how well behaved she was.

Today and last night we were much more creative, we scrapbooked 5 pages. Karyn brought her Cricut which I am not VERY sure I want some day – though the one that does the bigger sheets – the 12×12. I wonder if that would be covered under homeschooling since we would DEFINITELY find a million uses for it. The only problem is  the MACHINE is 499.99… ouch!

Pink Dress Photos

1 yr. Ladybug Dress

1 yr. Polka Dot Dress

Fall With Pumpkin

Memorial and Farm 100yrs.

So Ken was left in charge of the masses for most of the last two days. It was nice to be out with just the girls and easier to keep my mind of anything we are worrying about!

Sadly this morning Trinity woke up rather ill so she has been a major cranky puss all day. So was Ken until I got him a cheap coffee maker at Walmart. The one we received for our wedding back in 2001 died last month leaving Ken without his coffee which apparently is DEATH for a programmer like him. I am amazed it lasted that long!

I am not exactly sure but I THINK I felt some baby movement finally today… or I have totally worn out all the muscles in my abdomen from when we were out walking and the times I had to carry Trinity… could go either way at this point. I am still amazed that we are at 16 weeks already.

Top off the weekend with a surprise visit from Nathan and Ada and it has been (beside the sick baby) a great one. I feel very blessed to have the wonderful and supportive friends that we do. I don’t know that I can ever say thank you enough! Hopefully this will be the week where everything will become more the norm and we can depend a little less on their kindness… I just want to be self sufficient again!

Ada makes me look less rounded!

Patience… why is it that no matter how old we are, how rich, poor, healthy, ill… no matter our condition in love and life we are expected to HAVE PATIENCE. I find myself telling the kids to have patience when they ask for things RIGHT NOW. Ken has had over 2 weeks of his being tested… and I have come to the point in time where I wonder if I have any left. It is such a prized virtue and one you cannot live without, so why is it not something we are inherently born with? Which is my way of saying – we have to have MORE patience… a last minute hitch has kept us from getting our van back today so the individual Ken has been talking to will have to work it out over the weekend… or so he said. There is a nasty part of me that hopes he has to lose sleep over this whole thing this weekend… 2 1/2 weeks by then is WAY too long!

We have continued talking about SPRING today… melting snow, green grass, new leaves… lots of colouring of flowers and some cutting out of baby animal shapes. With Ken on the phone for almost the whole afternoon the boys missed out on their time with him to complete a couple long standing projects… so I am hoping while Karyn, Trinity and I enjoy the spring weather on a bit of a shopping trip they will be hard at work. Though I DO have to get more glue while I am out and about. We go through it so quickly in this house!

Gavin and Trinity Doing a Puzzle Together!

So not much to go on about but the need for us to all HAVE PATIENCE…

Why is it that the bigger the belly gets the smaller the boobs look even though mine have also gotten bigger?? lol 16 weeks