I had a horrible time falling asleep Thursday night – I was plagued with a tickly cough I just could not throw… so I had some time to think laying there in bed… here is what ran through my mind:
Who am I really? there are so many labels….The basic- Mother/wife/lover(LOL that sounds so naughty)/soulmate(whatever that really is??)/bestfriend… and then you go one step further to extended family – Daughter/step-daughter/sister/stepsister/granddaughter/neice/cousin/god-daughter/god-mother/aunty… in the community I am – Neighbor/friend/at times a customer… I am a woman, caucasion (sp?), Albertan… Canadian… I am of German/Russian decent… I am a human being… I am Lutheran… Christian… There are so many labels… if you strip those all away what do you have???
ME… Lisa Rose… somedays I feel like the labels swallow me up, I am Mommy first most days… then wife (if I am lucky maybe a lover??? LOL)… it is hard to believe that once I was just me… college student… philosopher… where am I going with this… well just when I got somewhere with my train of thought I finally fell asleep!! LOL and then an hour later the baby woke up hungry – figures. Story of my life, I get into that deep thought moment and BANG reality marches right back in.
So I am back to the question who am I? Well I know that I am emotional, loving, sympathetic… I am a lover of books and a certain American ex-soccer player… I am sure in my faith and love to sing. I am – ME and I honestly like myself. I am aware of things I need to change and am in the process of becoming… not drastic changes but then a little change is good – right?
Well it is the weekend finally… past midnight and tomorrow we have to go out in the morning so I should wrap up my ramble — did it ever get anywhere? LOL and get myself off to bed.