I wonder if the logical progression when in a situation where hope is becoming frayed is fear because I am starting to reach that point myself. After yet ANOTHER weekend without a van we call today to the contact we have been talking to for over a week and… he has not responded to messages or called us back. In the meantime I have gotten the call from my OBGYN with my first appointment with them (March 29th), confirmed my doctor’s appointment an hour away on the 12th, made our tax appointment for during the day on the 16th AND the 3 boys’ yearly appointments for late June… now the next major hurdle – will we even be able to get to these appointments??

Frustration has definitely given way to anger at this point, 2 1/2 weeks later and Ken is very much NOT willing to sit on hold for hours, we are beyond the point of understanding THEIR point of view when it is so obvious that BANK doesn’t care to see ours. We are out of options, we are almost out of the basics on food that are not easily carried home by Ken… we are not scheduling any homeschooling activities for lack of transportation… we are tired of being home… we are tired of being taken advantage of by a company that can’t seem to see beyond the fact that THEY made a mistake to recognize that THEIR mistake is causing major problems in the lives of 6 people.

No, I am afraid I will have to cancel appointments, that if we do have to get a rental we will have to take money from other things to pay for it. I am afraid  that in order to get mobile again we will have to look into the purchase of a different vehicle, that this repossession with ruin our credit rating… that I am letting my kids down… that Ken is going to end up sick again due to all this added stress…

So yeah…. not my best Monday…